We Can’t Let Words Get to Us

There was this controversy that has been going around with that man from Duck Dynasty. He said something that was controversial about gays and lesbians. I think his name is Paul Robertson. He was suspended by A&E because of these comments.

I am going to play the Devils advocate here and agree with most of the conservative even though I don’t consider myself one and, that would be that I don’t think he should have been suspended. Now I don’t watch Duck Dynasty but I have heard of the show. He was asked in an interview by GQ about how he felt about homosexual. Which technically set him up. If the people in GQ was really offended by him the interviewer would have not printed that question and, his answer in the magazine. People need to understand that not everyone is going to agree with your lifestyle. We can’t do anything about what people say. You can choose not to have anything to do with them.

This story id getting a media storm. The media love stories like this. I don’t know if what he said is hate speech or should be considered hate speech. All I know is I heard worse thing that are  said about gay and lesbians on television than what this man said.

The Problem with Facebook

This was written on my other blog.

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Facebook can be a great website for you can contact people and, promote businesses. The thing is though Facebook can make you feel very depressed. Seeing pictures of people who seem happy in pictures is very depressing. You want to be very happy for them but you become the green eyed monster. You become depress when you don’t have a certain number of “likes” on your status updates. When a person unfriend you get a little sad. Social media has taken over our lives. We are so obsessed with it. We take little things personally. You don’t know what that person means when they say something. you get offended when the statement that person made was not meant to offend you at all. You talk to people you don’t talk to in person but you talk to people.

Facebook is a good website, it depends of what you make of…

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To the Depressed and Suicidal: I Know How It Feels

Seth Adam Smith

I couldn’t shake the feeling that I needed to write this open letter. If someone you know is struggling with depression, or suicidal thoughts, please share this letter with them. I hope it helps.

To all that are struggling with depression,

I don’t know you. I don’t know who you are or where you’re from. I don’t know your background, nor do I know your unique circumstances. I don’t know if your depression is the result of your genetic disposition, or if it is caused by something terrible that happened to you in your past. I don’t know if you’re going through a major change in your life or if you’re struggling to cope with the loss of a loved one.

There are a lot of things about your fight with depression that I simply don’t know.

But let me tell you a few things that I do know.

I…

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Being Unique

Each and every one of us are unique. We all have unique features, unique experiences that makes us who we are today. If everyone was the same this world will be a very boring place that may seem cliche but it’s true. Most cliche things are true I noticed.

Here is my personality that makes me unique. I am introverted. I like going to a small get together and even functions but I like to have one on one conversations with people, I can talk up a storm but with a groups of people, I can’t do it. People say I am articulate but I don’t think I am because I speak so low. People say I am mature for my age but i don’t know. I like to sing though. I like to write,

I am pretty sure people have similar experiences and, interest that I have but I guess compared to other I am pretty unique. No one in this world looks exactly like me and think exactly like me. That’s what makes me unique. I think people should embrace themselves and accept who they are.

I Like Him A lot Love Him Even

I hope and pray that I can tell him how I feel. I pray that I will see him again. He is so sweet and he is such an happy person. But he will be going home to California. He doesn’t look like Denzel Washington, Idris Elba or Brad Pitt. He does not look like an Calvin Klein model but he is handsome to me. He is beautiful on the inside.

He is just a friend now but if I would tell him how I feel I would say, when you smile I smile. I want you to be happy. I want to make you happy. The thought of hurting you makes me cry because I would never want to do that to you. You inspire me. I don’t want to see you cry but if you do I would be there by your side. You make me want to be a better person than I’m already am . When I’m with you I feel that we are the only two people in this world. I know that sounds cheesy but it’s true.

We connect and it is so natural for us. When I first met you, I felt like we known each other forever. I felt like we were best friends just catching up with one another. When it is time to be apart. I know in my gut that you feel the same way. The way you look at me and, talk to me. When we talk it seems so natural. Maybe that’s the kind of person you are. A very outgoing person but the way we are together. It feels right you know.

Recently he found out his brother died. I haven’t seen him in 3 weeks though. If I knew his phone number I would call him and be there for him. Thinking of him being sad makes me sad. Not because I pity him but because I love him. Love ! What do I know about love? Is it a feeling? Is it a choice? Do you love for you or do you love for him? I am so confused. Why am I so confused? I want to show him that I love him and, I want to tell him but I am scared I might scare him away. People say that the guy should ask you out, the guy should say I love you first but when I see him I want to hold him and, say everything will be okay.

Should I call it infatuation, should I call it a crush or should I call it love? When people say his name I think “I want to take care of him.” I want to be there for him. I want to make love to him. Is it to early to say that? Making love? I am new to this concept of love and sex. I don’t know what to do. Why do I want these things? Why do I want him to be happy?  Why does he make me happy.

It’s embarrassing for me to be vulnerable and, talk about making love.

I am scared to admit that I love him. I’m afraid people might think I’m stupid. So I am just going to say I like him a lot. He influenced my life. I pray that I will see him again and, when I do see him again, I will be ready.  I will show him and tell him how I feel. It is not like he didn’t tell me he loved me before he did but I don’t know what kind of love he meant. I did not say it back. I don’t believe in soul mate but I know in my heart that he’s the right guy for me. I care for him deeply. He’s amazing.

Forgiveness, closure and, moving on with my life

I am 20 years old and, I have resentment towards my father. My dad use to be a great dad and, husband. He use to give my mother roses for surprise. He use to carry  me on top of his shoulders. The problem is he had a dark side. He hurt me, and now I have an hole in my heart that I need to fix. He betrayed my trust. I use to be scared of him. I developed PTSD because of the experience I had with my father. That happened almost 10 years ago and, I am still not over it.

Years of therapy and, years to come to help me get over it. It is going to be hard for me to forgive my father. To get over what happened to my mother and, I. My father was the first man to break my heart. I will never understand why he did that. He wrote me a letter, and send me a facebook message but he never really apologized. He was always really manipulative. Because of the issues I had with my father I think it effected my relationships. I still love him and wish him the best but I don’t know how I will get over it.I guess I have to take one step at a time.